Have you ever followed a guru or a mentor?
I’ve given my power away to lovers and spouses. I’ve sat by the phone. I’ve waited for permission.
I’ve turned in work and awaited, trembling, the judgment of others. I’ve given away my power subtly, with a glance that was perceptible to no one. And I’ve given it away overtly and shamelessly, for all the world to see.
Exile, failure, and banishment can be good things sometimes, because they force us to act from our own center and not from someone else’s.
I applaud your story of how you hit bottom, because at the bottom there’s no one there but yourself.
From Turning Pro: Tap Your Inner Power and Create Your Life’s Work by Steven Pressfield